Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Me myself and i


I want to learn new things
I want to study, to become a specialist
I want to be a good doctor
I want to go for exercise
I want to go for vacation, where at nite, im enjoying the pasar malam view
I want to laugh like before
I miss my friend
I miss the circle of people i use to have
I miss who i use to be
I wanna change
But
I need to have motivation
Thats the thing
I have none
Im feeling depressed
I feel like quitting
Rather than improving
I feel like running away
Rather than moving forward
I feel like hating everybody
Hating myself more and more everyday
Hating the environment
Rather than seeing the good in every aspect of life
I just wanna escape
I need to take a break
I wanna run away

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Never thot, this gonna happen

Hye there.

Im at my lowest point rite now. I feel the depression. Not in the mood to work. I wanna quit. I hve no motivation in life. I just want to quit. I dont wanna be a doctor. No more excitement in doing this job. I wanna quit. I just hate everyone. I hate this hospital. Can i quit?